Before I get too far into this post, I want to first thank all of you for your kind words and thoughtful messages. I will admit, we were all in a pretty dark funk. Everyday is a new day and we are all working towards finding closure. It really meant so much to me to read everyone's perspective on handling death. Lisa said something that completely hit me in the right way and I'm going to do exactly what she said.
She started by quoting me and then led into this...
"You said, "The man was like another father to Tony and a grandfather to me. He was the kind of person that brightened your day the second you set eyes on him. He had the most amazing smile that rubbed off on me every time I saw his face."
I think one way to keep him alive in your hearts is to aspire to be like him. Maybe it's that whole thing---people won't remember the things you did, but they will remember the way you made them feel."
Those words have seriously walked with me since you wrote them Lisa.
Ok, since we're moving forward these days, I will get right to the chase...I'm addicted to instagram (I'm stshasteen). Seriously, I'm all over taking quick shots of my boys...
First box of Cracker Jacks ever...this is Max's happy face.
This is Jay's awkward teen face.
Tippy trying to get Max's chicken. Yes, every meal here includes Franks!
Luke right after eating my hair. Does anyone else's cats do that? He sits on the top of the couch and gets my hair. Leia stayed in her happy place on top of the cat palace this weekend so I spared all from that. You're welcome!
Gluten free Banana Muffins! Recipe coming soon. I used a new NuNaturals sweetener.
Monster omelets! Bacon, potato, cheese and broccoli for the boys!
Scrambled egg whites with steamed broccoli seasoned with garlic and onion powder. This was not my usual bowl of oats and it was weird for me to crave this, but I gave in to my cravings and it totally hit the spot!
My first kabocha squashes!!!
Yeah, it took me all of 5 minutes to get these things in the oven when I got home from the Asian market! I'm totally in love! So much so that I ate an entire one all by myself yesterday. I would ask you not to judge, but yeah, I'm judging myself for that. Sweet, creamy, crunchy...really, it has everything. Oh and the topping, I'm sharing that on Friday! Gotta wait for Laura's Strange, But Good!
These slightly sweetened rice treats from the Asian market are highly addictive! The bag is about 3 feet tall and full of deliciousness!
And this salad, this salad is my all time favorite mix of flavors! Crisp Romaine lettuce, green beans, roasted baby bella mushrooms, quinoa, crisp fresh red peppers, an over easy egg for extra protein and the best dressing ever (the yolk).
I guess all of this is to say that we are finding joys in the little things these days. Being in the kitchen again definitely helps me. It's my meditation...my happy place. I'm going to spend more time there and focus on getting myself back on track mentally. I have a tendency to shut down when things get rough. I look at the big picture instead of taking everyday one day at a time and appreciating the small things that give me joy. I'm working on it, but it's a tough one for me.
Do you have a happy place?