Thursday, July 26, 2012
Reflections, Milestones, Memories and Looking Forward...
I blame Tony for this feeling. We were watching The Muppets on YouTube last night when I got a glimpse of an Elmo clip. I won't post the clip, but Elmo was Jay's absolute favorite and I can recite every word from every Elmo movie from that time period to this day. This song made me a blubbering mess. Truth be told too, to add insult to injury, I may or may not be emotional for hormone reasons too (whatever!)...

So, yeah, I'm having one of those kind of days. Not a bad day, but a remembering day. I am feeling the passage of time pretty hard these past few days. You see, today I took Jay to his first full day at the high school. Today is a day for the 9th graders to spend the day at school to go through the motions of their upcoming year. I drove up and dropped my baby boy off at high school...

Fall 1999

 I did not take a picture of him today because in my mind, he looked like this.

Fall 2006

I have so many friends that are just now having kids. I love reading about the stages they are in, but it really does make me miss my little guys. Don't get me wrong, I love that I don't have to keep an eye on them at parties, I don't have to wipe butts other than my own, they can and do help with things around the house when asked (most of the time) and the fact that I can sleep through the night...

 Fall 2010

but it really makes me realize that time goes so fast!

 Fall 2010

Fall 2010

He was so confident walking into the school today.

 Summer 2010 First Roller Coaster

 Summer 2010 Survived First Roller Coaster!

I am so proud of both of my boys. Next week I get to walk my littlest baby into middle school for the first time...

Summer 2010 

Max is still a mama's boy and I still get cuddles, but I know this will be changing soon...

Max Summer 2009

Jay Summer 2009

Spring 2008 (Max is not really sad, that was the stage where that look was his picture face! The Christmas pictures are that fantastic too!)

Summer 2009 (Favorite picture of all time of them!)

summer 2009

Today (after this post), I am going to work on enjoying the moment and focusing on now, otherwise I will blubber my eyes out. A friend of mine said the other day that Tony is going to have to tranquilize me when Jay drives off to college. Yes, he probably will. I realize that he is not gone and that the boys will always be close to us, but the passage of time is not especially easy to take in. I enjoy them so much and while it's not always easy to raise children, it is really nice having my best friends (my 3 men) around me everyday. No, I don't care about getting older since I know this all means that I am inevitably getting older. I actually like growing older with Tony. He seriously makes everything more fun. I am truly one lucky gal!

Do you remember starting high school? I do since I was in band and band camp was a HUGE thing for me since we stayed in a college for a week. Tony didn't start high school until 10th grade though and he was the youngest of 3, while I was the oldest of 4. Looking back, it was a HUGE milestone for my parents too, but since my sisters were so much younger than me (one is still in college) I don't know if it hit them as hard.  


posted by Sarena Shasteen - The Non-Dairy Queen @ 11:43 AM  
  • At July 26, 2012 at 11:51 AM, Blogger Heather Iacobacci-Miller said…

    What a sweet post my friend. I loved all the pictures. Definitely made me smile. I don't remember my first day of high school actually. Weird...I do remember 7th grade though b/c that's when we started changing classes and it was at the OLD/Original Hot Springs High. HUGE historic awesome building but overwhelming when you're 13!

  • At July 26, 2012 at 11:53 AM, Blogger Unknown said…

    Could not finish reading this because of the tears in my eyes. Shame on you.

  • At July 26, 2012 at 11:53 AM, Anonymous Kris said…

    awwww, I LOVE that first photo - so SO cute. all the others are too...

    I can only imagine that feeling - I have a friend who has a 17 year old, one we are very close to (Jason has basically been the "dad" in his life), we sent him through School of Rock, and seeing him now, playing in one of his two bands, like, out at an actual venue we have to pay to see, it's an awesome feeling. I've known him since he was a tiny thing, so it's a neat thing to see him grow up. but yeah, a completely different thing for a mom, I'm sure. such an exciting time in his life, I remember that first day!! you guys are Doing It Right as parents, so even if sometimes it may feel like they're going away, they're just doing their own thing and will be back - I know they appreciate you!

    big hugs to you. I had a cry day yesterday, today is clearer. XXO!

  • At July 26, 2012 at 11:59 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    aw what an exciting milestone! What handsome young men you have :) Love the photos!

  • At July 26, 2012 at 12:04 PM, Anonymous Laura @ Sprint2 the Table said…

    Time does fly... but think how much fun your guys are going to have as they get older and you develop a relationship as friends too. I love the way my mom and I can hang out now days. (We could barely talk in high school.)

  • At July 26, 2012 at 12:06 PM, Blogger Heather said…

    Your boys are seriously to-die-for cute. They both look so happy!
    What a sweet, sweet post.

  • At July 26, 2012 at 12:08 PM, Blogger laura said…

    Awww, this made me cry (I may be a hormonal mess at the moment too). It is so completely bittersweet, isn't it. Definitely the one part of motherhood that really took me by surprise. My baby will be one next month and I am having a very hard time with it. Glad to know I'm not alone in feeling this way. On a different note, you and Tony make the handsomest boys. Thanks for sharing all the great pictures.

  • At July 26, 2012 at 12:30 PM, Anonymous Amy B @ Second City Randomness said…

    I will never forget how excited I was when I moved to college and also to Chicago. However, it was hard to say good bye to my parents. My dad rarely cries. But it definitely happened on those two moments. It's a bittersweet experience- they're happy to see you excel and follow your dreams, but sad to not have you around anymore. Happy tears are the best tears. :)

  • At July 26, 2012 at 1:18 PM, Blogger Cotter Crunch said…

    this made me tear up too, but in a good way. I see such beauty in your life and how you have raised good boys to almost men, eek! Yes, live in the moment.

  • At July 26, 2012 at 1:33 PM, Anonymous Shirley @ gluten free easily said…

    For some reason, school milestones didn't really get to me because Son was still with us and we were interacting daily, but college ... OMG. Yes, you will need to be sedated, dear. ;-) Beautiful post, Sarena. You are all very lucky to have each other!


  • At July 26, 2012 at 1:55 PM, Anonymous An said…

    Oh my goodness...I can only imagine the amount of freaking out I will do when Lila goes to high school. It seems SO far off, but the funny thing is, even though she's barely rolling over-- I know it's NOT!!! Time passes so quickly...scarily so.

  • At July 26, 2012 at 1:55 PM, Anonymous Anna @ On Anna's Plate said…

    Sorry-- that previous comment was me. I pressed "enter" a little too eagerly :-)

  • At July 26, 2012 at 2:05 PM, Anonymous Jess said…

    Aww I just love this! You are such a loving and adoring mom to those little boys. It's so great to see that kind of love shared so outwardly with us. Seriously, beautiful post!

  • At July 26, 2012 at 3:28 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Oh my gosh the boys are so grown up!!! :) That's so cute!!

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  • At July 26, 2012 at 3:38 PM, Anonymous Paige @ your trainer paige said…

    Awww, Sarena:) You are such a good mamma.
    I kinda like the nostalgia feeling...memories are meant to be felt and remembered, right? :) :)

  • At July 26, 2012 at 3:57 PM, Anonymous Alisa said…

    Aw, they are so darn cute and lucky to have such an amazing mama!

  • At July 26, 2012 at 4:27 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Your post nearly had me in tears. My kiddos are smaller (3 and 6) but each year I feel it! It's bitter sweet and as a mom I really try and savor every moment. I can't imagine yet what it's like to have two independent children. Mine still depend on my so much.

    I married my best friend, so I very much look forward to connecting with Scott again as parents of older children, that will be a nice transition to make. But they are only little for a short while, and in our home for a short while, and then they are off into the world. I just can't imagine (gasp). But I see us (my husband and our two children) all great buddies one day. Going on vacations together, laughing together, playing music together, dancing together. :-)

    Your post is just lovely - thank you for sharing.

    Be Well,

  • At July 26, 2012 at 11:19 PM, Anonymous purelymichelle said…

    wow! I am sure a lot of emotions are running through you as you look back at your boys photos. Crazy how fast they grow up!

  • At July 27, 2012 at 12:58 AM, Anonymous Kim-Cook It Allergy Free said…

    Oh, I love this post. But it makes me a little sad too. I totally feel your pain. But it is just crazy that these kids are just growing way to fast and time seems to be just flying by before our eyes.
    Your boys are just totally completely precious!!
    Oh. And I already panic about my boys leaving for college. I keep putting the bug in their ear that Arizona State University would be an awesome school to go to (and just down the road...LOL)!!!
    Thanks for sharing your reflections with us today!

  • At July 28, 2012 at 1:41 AM, Blogger Amy said…

    I'm a bit late replying to this post (too much in my google reader!) but I totally empathize with where you are at. It really hit me this year when Kahlea headed off to her first year of high school and my "babies" started Year 4 (seems to be the year for girls and when they turn from best friends into cliquey enemies-so very sad).

    I too seem to feel the passage of time a lot more this year than I ever have before and many of my friends too are just having babies (and so many of them twins! Makes me so nostalgic).

    I also appreciate not having to be up all night with screaming babies or messy nappies but it makes me sad to think they'll never be that little and dependent on me again.

    Big big (((hugs))) xx

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